I'm sorry to read about your situation, Butterfly.
I gave birth to a little girl 5 months ago and there is absolutely no way of describing how it feels to hold your own child for the first time. You helped create this little person - it is such a miracle!
There is so much support for young/single mums if you need it, so don't ever feel like you're on your own. I can put you in touch with people who can help, if you like.
If you decide that you'd rather not keep your little one, I'm sure there are some beautiful parents somewhere who can't have children, but would love to adopt.
Good luck, Butterfly.
I was in the same situation as you. Im sending you a pm telling you how I handled it. Hope it helps. Take care.